God? Life is a Mystery

I'm watching the George Lopez show on t.v. right now. The episode is about his son's dog--the dog gets a tumor in his stomach and the vet tells them that it's going to take a miracle for the dog to live. Both George and his son make promises to God that if the dog is cured of this cancer, they will perform a certain degrading task of some sort. George, who hates the dog, is infuriated when he finds the dog has been miraculously healed from his ailments. He must now fulfill his promise to God. But does he? He does not.

How many times have we made promises to people that we can't keep or don't really want to keep because it'll some how inconvenience us. How often do we as humans promise God that we will "be good" if we receive something in return? The United States isn't the one that is in the most debt right now. The human race owes so much to God because of these unfulfilled promises that we have made Him.

I have recently been debating between two different colleges to attend. They both have their pros and cons, but one stands out more than the other. I've talked with God about it--I have asked Him, "If you want me to go in either direction, you need to make is somehow clear to me--open doors where Your will leads so that my mind can rest." He hasn't revealed anything spectacular as of yet, but I'm still waiting for his guiding hand to show itself.

The question that I have is this: When He does reveal what He would like me to do (and I am confident that He will show His will in due time), how willing will I be to follow? Will I have enough trust in His infinite wisdom to grow into the person He wants me to be? I am afraid that I may let my own reasons and my own aspirations get in the way of of His ultimate authority and will. I pray that I will not.